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[Dec. 4th, 2009|11:30 pm] |
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| | Avril Lavinge - When you're gone | ] |
Love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same. If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours. If it doesnt, it was never yours. |
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[Nov. 30th, 2009|12:05 am] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUU!
I thank God for you on this special day!
For bringing much joy, love and laughter into my life.
For giving me memories I'll never forget.
For giving me the opportunity to be there for you.
Just want you to know, knowing you had made a difference :) |
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[Nov. 27th, 2009|11:40 pm] |
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| | At the foot of the cross. | ] |
People said that God will make a way for things and have many ways to do certain things.
And yes, i guess i could really see that happening through the people around me.
The other day over dinner, you said grace before your meal which left me astounded.
I was glad that you did, but was wondering, why would you do that when you usually dont?
That was when you told me that I've influenced you to say graces before meals.
I was taken aback, happy, didnt know what to say.
Perhaps you were joking, i dont know, i couldnt tell, but all i knew was that to hear those words from you, was extremely heart warming and really reminded me that Jesus is clearly with us.
Throughout this whole year, being in a non-catholic school and being distanced from church activities, i would say that i have drifted from Jesus by quite abit. It's not that i didnt need him, but more like coming up with excuses like I dont have the time for him, which is what most people will do and i've realised i've become one of them. I know that i've drifted, and given my surroundings, i know that not only do i not make time for him, i also start to exclude him from the problems i faced, or put it simply my life. I've realised that everything i've come across only makes me think of the real world, and not about Jesus; what he wants for me, and what i should really do. I no longer pray as much as i do before to him, for wisdom and guidance. It's only during the darkest periods that i go to him which makes me feel really disappointed in myself because that is not the way things are supposed to be. I only think about him during my darkest moments, which i feel makes me really selfish. If he could give, why couldnt i? I'm taking this time during the hols to get reconnected and to be spiritually recharged, so that i'm able to live the life he wants me to, and i hope i'm up to it. I want to be close to you again, help me find my way back.
And, it was only that day when I saw you saying your grace, did i realise my prayers were answered, and that Jesus was there with us. It just felt that i made an impact in someone's life, and that I was made an instrument of God to bring you back to him. It's not that i am happy because i've influenced you, for i know it isnt me who did it, it was the work of the holy spirit, the trinity, that gave me the strength to reach out to you. It just amazes me how Jesus could work in many different small ways and i'm sure it was a sign and a motivation for me to really go back to him. |
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[Nov. 24th, 2009|10:14 pm] |
Give me my holidays! :(
tiring week(s) of supplementary lessons, and though i want my hols, somehow i'm motivated to learn.
i hope this feeling wil last in the long run and not temporary only.
so many things coming up! my calendar of events are (!!!)
THANGS:
1. Last training tmr [boohoo], got to shop for kel's & b's present after school :D
2. Josh is coming back on thursday!
3. I think i've got a date with someone to shop on thurs.
4. Maybe watching Sien's tennis match on friday.
5. 30Nov, b's birthday. dang, school screws it up. i need a plan B.
6. 3dec, SJC pingpong BBQ. [reunion!]
7. 6-11dec, B's in HK :(
8. 8-12dec, I'm in HK too! :D
9. 13-19dec, B's in malaysia :(
10. 13dec, Josh flying off! :(
11. 20++dec, chalet!
12. 24dec, midnight christmas mass!
why are there more sad events that are gonna happen rather than joyous? LOL.
i'm lovesick :( |
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[Nov. 19th, 2009|04:46 pm] |
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AWESOME, my new hair cut! :D |
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[Nov. 17th, 2009|09:28 pm] |
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STARBUCKS NEW FESTIVE DRINK!
AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEE!
IT MAKES YOU GO CRAZYYYYY!
DARN GOOD :D
I WANT TO SEE MY METEOR SHOWERS!
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[Nov. 10th, 2009|10:00 pm] |
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This is what i've been doing.
Nike Human Race 241009
Commendation Day 301009
OP Rehersal Weeks
Hardcore : 261009-091109
Mandy's crib 061109
Boys Street Soccer 091109
Last day of slogging my guts out for PW,
wonderful experience through the year BUT THANKFULLY
I'm finally washing my hands off it :D
101109 |
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[Nov. 8th, 2009|03:39 pm] |
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i was afraid when you read it, wondering what you would think of it.
to my surprise, you did the most heart warming thing, which was to embrace me.
nothing could express how i felt at that moment. it was just over-whelming, and relieving.
i was glad that this turned out right, and we still have lots to work on.
thanks for the music box :) ; i'll remember every word you said to me.
"Nowadays, we may not see each other as often. I bought this for you, so that you could listen to it when you missed me, and hopefully it would make you feel that i'm always there with you."
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[Nov. 5th, 2009|09:08 pm] |
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this, was what you left me with this morning. a broken heart.
i care, i know it myself, and i wont stop caring. you know it.
i never gave up. i decided to give it another shot.
thanks for all who were there for me today. really appreciate your presence. |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2009|10:20 pm] |
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will i ever see light, to this whole issue?
i hope so.
i need it, i want it.
what if my worst fear comes true?
what if everything turns out fine?
what if we're left with no choice?
what if there was such a thing as total freedom?
what if we could do things without having to face consequences?
what if they could never find out?
what if i cant hold on for long?
what if i didnt try hard enough to stand in your shoes?
what if you could view things better from my perspective?
what if we were meant to be?
what if we were not?
damn it.
just know that i love you. |
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